Becoming a womb led woman

The path of the womb chose me - or it chose my womb. 

One day, without a warning, after a relatively uneventful life of menstruation, my bleed arrived with excruciating pain and bowel dysregulation. 

It was very scary.

One of these moments when you just know something went wrong. Period is not supposed to feel this overwhelmingly debilitating.

Then it happened next month. And next. Every month for years.

At first I was resisting the possibility of endometriosis.

I was hoping it would finally go away if I just take another supplement, drink another herbal tea or even quit my job. 

I did all those things and then again when my period arrived with a claw-like, burning pain in my uterus I felt defeated. 

I felt like there was something wrong with me.

Something wrong with my womb.

It felt like all the other women around me had normal, easy periods, but me.

I felt more and more alone and frustrated - and afraid. 

And yet something in me knew better.

Something beyond my conscious thought or ego - it was an intuition, a pull.

I started a womb connection course and began hosting women’s circles and retreats. 

After years of choosing intimacy with men over women, working in achievement and problem-driven environments, escaping from discomforts in my body, I knew I needed more connection with the feminine.

It was at one of these retreats that I experienced a shift that now defines my work.  

As I shared about my menstrual pain and how defeated I’ve been feeling, a friend told me - It’s not your fault. Your pain is not punishment for wrongdoing.

At first I felt so ashamed.

How could I have been treating myself like this?

Not only was I in pain larger than I could hold, but also I was telling myself that it was my fault.

Then came the grief - a surrender.

It was like the vast, unconditional love of the feminine touched something deep inside me and asked me to see how I am already whole. 

Instead of trying to fix myself or my womb, what actually needed attention was the culture around me and the level of disconnection from the feminine.

There was this quality of being that became known to me - the feminine quality. 

A way of being that is anchored in presence, in wholeness and in relationship. 

Instead of intervening on the level of symptoms, I started acting on the level of the relationship.

My relationship to my body, my womb, my menstrual cycle, my mother, my female friends as well as reality and life, including death.

Re-mothering myself, my relationships and ultimately - the culture. 

Today I stand clear in the purpose I am feeling deep in my flesh and bones. 

I want to meet women who know there is more possible for them - more love, more power, more satisfaction and aliveness.

I write about my own unfolding understanding of the feminine to bring more visibility into how non-linear and spiral this process is.

I create self-paced resources, community containers and guided experiences that give women a window into what’s possible.

I also offer 1:1 journeys to support women who want to re-align their life around the feminine quality.